long time no see

im back again i love writing on here it relieves some stress emotions or a place where i could look back and enjoy a good laugh or two. this week was one living nightmare first starting off with the piles of medicare cases that landed on my desk and ending with an unfortunate phone conversation. i look back and read my blog from august and i remember asking myself if i was willing to take a chance. i wasnt sure if i was ready to date again. i feel bad because when things go wrong i always try to analyze the situation but end up blaming myself in the end. i dont want to be that girl that people look at and say shes fun but not serious. it was hard, yet again to open up myself to another person i always put this cage around my heart and wear a mask on my face to pretend like i really dont care but deep down i really do. i think its better not to put your all in to avoid getting hurt in the end. im glad to have met such an interesting person in my life. he was different sweet funny and charming but i guess i wasnt the one he was looking for. things happen for a reason so im just looking at this from a positive perspective.